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I'm having a snarky day with one of my family. Not in person just in my head. So I guess its just a virtual snarky one way conversation where I'm constantly trying to prove my worth to deaf ears, in this virtual conversation as, to be fair, its all in my head. I found that quote and it kinda fitted, finding self respect however, probably a lot harder.
I think I'm too scared to have the conversation in real life, so its rolling around my head like a snowball getting bigger and bigger.
I'm also off to my session with my therapy lady soon. This is either good or bad timing, I can't decide.
Today is hard.
Snarksville Central. Is it because I'm nearing 100 days? My heads telling me I'll fail. Wolfie has is clangers out and the van with the loudspeaker out in the street.
I just don't know why. Its not a particularly unusual day, in fact the sun is even out.
I'm off to drown myself in sunshine.
There may even be freckles if I'm not careful.
Catch you all later sober lovlies.
And thanks. Like a lot.
You are so close. Your head might tell you you'll fail...but I know you won't! And then I'll be right behind you. And then what? Then we will keep going!
ReplyDeleteSounds like a plan! :) thank you. x
DeleteWolf repellent here! Tell that bastard to STFU. Right this instant!! (Use the voice you would use with a toddler in tantrum mode in grocery store). You are better and stronger than that, and you are soaking up sunshine not booze. Sounds like a LIFE day (or more accurately a 'life situation' with family member), but not a day/situation that would be improved by the addition of alcohol, n'est ce pas? Hang in there!
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Tantrum still in full mode but I've sent him to his room with no supper. :) Adding alcohol won't help no. In fact it could make it considerably worse because the hurt might pour out verbally when loose lipped so its a very bad idea.
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I've noticed, from personal experience, and from reading others' experiences, the Wolf does tend to make appearances around important milestones. I say give him a swift kick in the arse and tell him to go away! To hell! Do not come back! Going thru a little family snark stuff myself. The quote is perfect. Hang in there! Lori K xx
ReplyDeleteLori K thank you, others have said the same the milestones become hard. Kicked up backside sent to bed. He's snarking about still but I'm being vigilent.
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In the first months after quitting drinking, I found some days were unbelievably hard. It was like these emotional storms would kick up out of nowhere and overwhelm me. But you're doing great, and you can keep on doing great! Sending you good wishes and strength. xo
ReplyDeleteThank you its not that I'm doing a desperate drooling for a glass of fizz its just the fuzzy head thing that's saying it wants let out.
DeleteI take those good wishes and grow them strong.
Enjoy the sunshine Daisy! Coming up on the triple digits is huge, you are growing and changing and spreading your wings, sometimes this causes a bit of discomfort but you are so worth it!
ReplyDeleteOooh sober wings that would be lovely. It was an enjoyable day in the sun for a while. I'm changing so I want to keep doing that no backwards, it won't help. x I hope you're feeling a bit better
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