Thursday 5 November 2015

Coming at you like a Sober Dodo

How to kill a conversation stone dead. Like dodo dodo dead.

Me - Hey look I treated myself to a fitbit thingmy - trying to get a bit fitter.

Friend - Great - wow its ace how do you use it, why did you get it?

Me - Well guess what its a year and a bit since I stopped drinking and I just thought I deserved a treat. I'm feeling much better and thought I'd keep going.

Silence.

From someone who dissects the minutia of our lives normally, silence was as roaring as a charging bull.

More silence. For once I did not offer excuses or did I retrench, I just lent into the silence, waiting for a response. My time to talk and explain, share, confess and really be honest.

Nothing.

Unsurprisingly perhaps, a complete change of topic enchewed. I almost checked my watch to make sure I wasn't in some space time anomaly, which you know happens often in the park. However no Tardis in view. Seems time is perfectly fine.



No darling girl, this isn't going away. But, I'll wait and talk about it when you're ready. I'm already here.

Bit of a monumental one for me. Sad about the Tardis but amazed at my small courage.

Happy sober day. New routine seems to be helping. Thanks for all the cheering from the sidelines.

12 comments:

  1. I find it so brave that you were able to leave the silence there. Not being apologetic is a great leap! Hooray for you, though I'm sorry the Tardis let you down. xo

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    1. First time ever! I usually fill it with apologetic gibberish. And no tardis, so not cool. x

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  2. Thirsty is right!
    You are brave to wait!
    That's cool!
    xo
    Wendy

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    1. I don't think she'll ever get it. I wanted her approval throughout my life but not now. xx

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    1. Why thank you Mrs! I've a long way to go but its baby steps right xx

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  4. You area sober baddass girl :) You might want to read Brene Brown's Rising Strong ;) xx

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    1. You know you'll laugh I do want to read her books but never seem to be 'honourable' enough to read them. Get on the book shop I should..x

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  5. Well done on how you handled that situation. It's perfect - you're already there :-) The fitbit is awesome! Enjoy xx soberp82

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    1. Thanks lovely - must catch up soon, not been your way for a while! x

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