I'm beginning to realise that without you all I'd be goosed and it would be very cooked at that. And, the best thing I did, was to say I bought booze and not hide the fact that I did. I'd be hiding in Shame rather than sharing in Shame Club (thanks Lucy!!)
Hiding stuff isn't helpful.
I'm hardly Einstein really am I.
So I've listened and thought about your comments, thank you for those. I've also upped my sober stuff in real life by signing up for a 'three month' contract with myself offered by my recovery group. So I'll be doing a monthly one to one session with my five year sober mentor, setting myself some goals and really working on finding a bit of an even sober keel.
My world is becoming more and more sober.
I'm proud of this weekend. We've had family birthdays and lots of social stuff. Its all been sober.
Even dinner out, and that's progress. Only a fleeting flutter past the wine pages to the soft drinks.
Got home and even managed a post meal movie. Normally I would have been looking for the next bottle of wine. Not anymore.
I'm proud of that.